I finally broke down in tears for the past 2 nights. Maybe my stress tolerance is not high enough? Maybe I can't take it anymore? Maybe that is my way of reliefing stress? Maybe I can't take it anymore? Maybe I can't breath anymore? Maybe I had did my best? Maybe I should give up? Maybe I should try hard? Maybe it is really hard to keep quiet?

I don't know whether I have tried enough. I don't know whether have I done anything right. I don't know whether have I done anything for the relationship.

How do you define being a good girl? Listen and do what was being told? Look at you with a smile while you are angry or while being scolded or even when she is sad or even angry?

Crying alone where no one cares. Crying into my pillow during bedtime softly. Have friends but I choose not to load them with my 100% unhappiness. At times, feel lonely and empty in my heart. Choose to be happy, laugh and enjoy but remove mask when I am alone. This is the kind of life which is in favour?

I want to be happy.